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Joel Madden

[ website | [[I AM NOT JOEL, DAMMIT.]] ]

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[28 Jul 2003|11:53pm]

[ mood | SHY GIRL ITS WRITTEN ]

[ music | ON YOUR FACE ]

I BEEN WAITIN' FO THE STARS TO COME OUT DINNER IT WAS FINE BUT I CANT LIE CAUSE IVE BEEN WAITIN' FOR YA, TO COME BACK TO MINE. (OOOH!) I CANT EXPLAIN TO WHICH EXTREME IM FEELIN' YO-O-OU (FEELING YOU) HOW MANY TRIPLE X DREAMS THATVE BEEN STARRING YOU-OOOOU I GOT YOU NOW! AND! I JUST WANNA. SHOW YOU HOW TO PLAY-EE. GOOOOOSEBUMPS ON YO BODEH GUIDE THE WAY-EE.

I WANNA GO ALL NIGHT AIN'T NO STOPPIN TILL THE BREAKIN OF THE DAWN, I WANNA GO INSIDE EVERY CORNER GIRL YOU REALLY TURN ME ON! I WANNA GO. KNOCK KNOCK. OUR BODIES TO THE BEAT AND WHEN THE MORNING COMES, WE'LL LET THE SUNRISE AND STAY IN BED CAN'T SEPERATE US, WE FIT TOGETHER-HER.

That was my lame attempt to somewhat come back to life. Hi.

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Kelly don't read this. [16 Jul 2003|01:41am]

[ mood | kelly is the one. ]

[ music | i love kelly. ]

Tyson Ritter, please report to my pants.

Edit: Wow, I just completely ignored everything, didn't I? Rotfl, I didn't mean too, I just forgot.

Britney, I hope you're ok. I'm not gonna lecture you 'cause I'm sure you've gotten enough of that. <33333

Benji, I'll call you later. ~~Stupid bitch.~~ :| Billy convinced me. And I can't not talk to you forever, because ~~unfortunately~~ I will probably have to see and work with you for the rest of my life.

I love Kelly for real, bye.

I just edited that and made it more meaner because .. I don't really know, but I liked it. ;x

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What exactly is the point of a subject line I mean really [14 Jul 2003|04:21am]

[ mood | HEY. ]

[ music | HEY HEY. ]

Hey hi what's up, new icons its 4 something AM, no it isn't, more like 5AM. My computer clock is wrong and I am tired I really want to change my layout because it's annoying the fuck out of me but I'm way too lazy I mean really does it look like I have time to change my layout everytime it starts to annoy me oh dear that was an asshole-ish remark there wasn't it well pretend I never said it because I don't want anymore posts about how I'm such an asshole they aren't that fun to read if you know what I'm saying what the hell this Coldplay song is kind of annoying me especially at 5:02AM yep its been two minutes since I've been writing this don't you love how I don't use periods question marks or commas I just keep writing I think its kind of funny and its fun to do everyone should try it sometime its really great and I am just trying to think of things to make this long I watched the disney channel today with Kelly and she doesn't like Lizzie Mguire whats up with that that show is tight as hell I swear and Even Stevens wtf these little kids should get journals or not just kidding please don't but you know who should Snoop and Pharrell because they are my favorite gangstas sorry Nelly but you ain't a gansta, fool.

.. I ruined it 'cause I used a comma and a period oh no looks like I'll have to start over what the hell I hear something barking and Im guessing its a dog unless Ozzy barks and I would hope not oh god now I'm getting mental images of a barking Ozzy time to go to sleep dont you think yeah me too peace.

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[13 Jul 2003|11:00pm]

[ mood | nervous ]

[ music | nothing ]

I have NO idea what to say.

Ah. So, I'm not going to explain my actions. Quite honestly, I don't know how. I'm sure we all already know that I do stupid things, and am very stupid at times. And if you don't know, now you know. (Ahaha guess what thats from.)

Most of you probably know by now that I was with Kelly the whole time. Ooh, shocker. I don't know, she was the first person and the only person I really wanted to see, to be quite honest. I sure as fuck didn't want to see Benji. :)

And as Benji so delicately said, I've been an asshole lately. Selfish, whatever. I guess I've been blinded by all of the hype and shit that's been going on, 'cause I didn't notice myself changing. But I know Benij wouldn't say all that shit for no reason, and really, if I haven't changed any, nothing would have happened with me and Kelly. And I've totally just closed up. I never talk to Benj, Billy, Paul or Chris about shit anymore. No one. I just acted like nothing was going on and things WERE going on, but let me not talk about that because it's done with and I don't .. want too.

I know I owe everyone a shitload of apologies. I cannot apologize enough for my oh-so selfish actions, and I know it. Okay, so there was a bit of sarcasm in that last sentence, but seriously. I am sorry. For what? I'm not sure. If I've been an asshole to you, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for even writing that last entry, and I'm sorry for being so immature that I had to "run away". I'm sorry for saying none of you care, I know that was lame. I'm sorry to Billy for .. yeah, I'm sure you got what I was talking about in my last entry. It was inconsiderate and insensitive .. and just retarded. I don't know what the fuck's going on in your head half the time, so I would have no idea about .. shit. So I'm sorry for saying it. I'm sorry for being a little bitch and basically just saying "fuck you" to everyone with my last entry. Re-reading it, I never thought I could get that bitter and immature, but ooh, I've proven to myself that I infact CAN be that self-centered, isn't that great. :D

I just hope everyone reads this (that it concerns .. GC, Britney, Tyson, Kel, whatever) and accepts my apology. 'Cause I don't think I can get anymore sincere, although this .. wasn't very sincere at all. I don't know what I'm talking about. Is it sad that I'm sort of afraid to even post this 'cause I'm afraid everyone's going to think I sound like an asshole? Thanks Benji. :)

Anyway, I hope everythings been cool with everyone and shit, 'cause I definitely missed talking to everyone .. ah. sdkhfsd I'm just really sorry I even did this shit in the first place, and it just shows you how immature I can be. I'll be on later, for sure.

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[08 Jul 2003|08:18pm]

[ mood | ... ]

[ music | -- ]

Okay so maybe I'm just over sensitive or something but .. I don't know, so many things have been pissing me off lately and just .. fuck, I never say anything about it. I'll never say anything about it. It's not healthy to keep it in, right? Don't care.

So I thought taking a break from one thing would help me .. I don't know. I don't know what the fucks wrong with me, but its something and it's driving me fucking insane. :) Oh, and I'm realizing I probably fucked up one of the best things I've ever had in my life 'cause I'm stupid and I don't know what I'm doing. God, lifes peachy. Point is, nothings resolved and I feel even more shitty than before.

Everyone's like "Oh Joel, you can talk to me about anything, blah blah blah." No, I fucking can't. There are things I just can't talk to people about, and wow, it's definitely just ended up hurting me in the end. I wish I could talk about it, but I'm confused myself as to what I'm feeling, or whatever. There probably are people I can talk too, but I doubt they give a shit. Too wrapped up in their own drama-filled lives.

And woo, now I feel like only one thing makes me happy anymore. And I've lost that. Gone. Seriously, I just want to slap myself and ask if I'm ever satisfied. I SHOULD have everything I want and be content with my life, but no. I insist on complaining about this stupid shit that no ones even going to understand or even know what I'm talking about.

Shit like this makes me so fucking bitter. So I'm leaving. Thank god we have off 'cause I honestly cannot take it anymore, and I need to be away from everyone. Do I want to be away from everyone? Not from some people. But then again, everyone's in their own little world with whomever and all happy and shit, so no one will notice. I'm being really selfish, I know. I don't care. I don't think I care about anything anymore, which is really sad. Which is why I'm leaving.

I probably will not be around for the rest of the week or until I feel like it. Don't ask where I've gone, 'cause I won't tell you. Oh wait, you can't. Can't call my cell either. You'll understand when you feel like this one day, and you just want to be alone.

PS Nobody fucking say anything like I'm trying to get attention or anything like that, 'cause many of you have stupid ass vague entries every other fucking day about dumb crap, YOU'RE the ones that want attention, k. I never do this. Never have. I wouldn't even have posted this if I didn't think our manager would send out a search party for me, so I don't miss any appearances or some shit. Whatever we have, if anything, I won't be there, thanks. :) I'm not trying to get sympathy or any shit like that, which is why I'm disabling comments. Not like anyone would give a fuck, anyway, 'cause ooh, we all have our own shit going on.

So I don't care any more either. Peace.

[08 Jul 2003|05:16am]

[ mood | weird ]

[ music | neptunes ]

I made a new layout. Starring Benji Madden. Well, it's really starring me 'cause I'm great and it's my fucking journal, but Benjis in it. 'Cause I liked the pictures. It ain't done yet.

I feel sick. Bye.

psthxbritny4thecod3.

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[07 Jul 2003|06:47am]

[ mood | WAY TOO HYPER BYE ]

[ music | WANKSTAH ]

UH. CHECK THE ICON.

Britney and I have not gone to sleep yet oops. BOIOIOI !!!

PS HI TONY I JUST SAW THE VIDEO FOR JADED AND GUESS WHAT I DID WHEN IT CAME ON?!!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOPE YOU'RE TAKING SELF CONTROL CLASSES ;X!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

PIZZOUTT

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Oh. Oh. Oh. Oh. Chingy. Let down your hurr. [07 Jul 2003|03:06am]

[ mood | .. nah. ]

[ music | korn - did my time ]

Uh. So, I really owe you guys a real update. Actually, I don't owe you guys shit but it'd be nice if I did a real update, hm? Heres my pathetic attempt.

I never thought I'd say this but .. actually, I'm just not going to say it. If you don't already know, ask me. .. Although most of you will probably figure it out eventually, you're all smart boys and girls, minus Chda. I think everything will be fine though.

So I believe that tonight was our last show till .. I have no idea. I never know these things, thanks. We are back in the US though, that's good. I cant stand being overseas for too long, I hate it over there. I'm just glad we have time off now. Like I said before, I'm gonna go check out some dates on Warped 'cause yeah, all my friends are there. And then I'm gonna check out some dates on the Made tour, what what. Gotta represent, or some lame shit we always say.

For the rest of the time, I have no idea what I'll do 'cause I'm not gonna go see Kelly or whatever I said I'd do. I'll probably go home. I might go check Britney, but I actually feel awkward going to other places besides home without Benji or Kelly. As clingy as that sounds. >:O

What, anyway. I don't know whats going on and what the hell am I talking about.

Yes so I'm hot and not in a very good mood so I'm out. Oh damn, I didn't even talk about anything of importance. Oh well. Holla.

Edit: Why does my fucking date say July 8th? Damn.

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[04 Jul 2003|04:13am]

[ mood | .. just no. ]

[ music | none. ]

So how sad is it that my girlfriend's feeling all .. I don't even know, and I couldn't tell? How sad is it that I don't even know how she's feeling at all? I knew I wasn't good at this boyfriend thing, what the fuck.

I'm so sick of this kshnkbhk I wish things would go back to how they were in the beginning. Peace.

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[02 Jul 2003|02:26am]

[ mood | ... ]

[ music | ... ]

So there must be something wrong with me if I feel like this.

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[30 Jun 2003|01:38am]

[ mood | RAH#@*#@BNKEWBSDB. ]

[ music | evanescence ]

Why doesn't Amy Lee have a journal yet? I mean, honestly. Wtf. >:O

Yes I'm lurking even though no one cares. What now. >:O

I think I like the '>:O' face a little too much. >:O

Bye. >:O

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[27 Jun 2003|05:59am]

[ mood | confused ]

[ music | guess. ]

I'm ignoring it 'cause most likely I'll really fucking regret doing anything else.

So Kelly leaves .. today? I think. I don't know. Ofcourse I'll miss her, but after we're done with out touring I'm going to go stalk her on her tour, oops. Why? 'Cause I want too. :-*

Tyson told me some pretty fucking disturbing shit today about his male genitalia. And about his urinary methods. ... I won't go there. :]

Everyone needs to pick up the new Michelle Branch cd 'cause it's really fucking good. And I'm not just saying that, 'cause ..why would I. Ok. And don't get the Beyonce cd wtf. >:O

Bye.

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[24 Jun 2003|11:28pm]

[ mood | sure-ish ]

[ music | sure - the sures ]

Sure.

( OOC )

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[24 Jun 2003|12:50pm]

[ mood | annoyed ]

[ music | spanaway - the movielife. (yes i took out mest) ]

Um. I need a break before I explode because this is driving me up the fucking wall. :D And then I wonder why I've never had anything like this. It's 'cause I can't have it. Because I'm not supposed too. HOWS THAT FOR CRYPTIC..NESS?

Everyone that's hating on my hair can shut the fuck up now, 'cause I'm spiking it. :D .. Well I did a couple times. I like it so shut uppp :]

I wanna go home already, wtf. I am not a team player, or something. :[

Yeah bye.

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[22 Jun 2003|02:50pm]

[ mood | anxious ]

[ music | walking on broken glass - mest ]

Michelle Branch got a journal. ::is happy now:: HAHA, GET IT? .. I'm happy now. And .. stfu I thought it was funny in my head. >:O

Ew. I heard about what happened Tony, I HOPE YOU'RE OK. :D

UM BILLY IS CONFUSING ME WITH THIS GERMAN SHIT BYE.

EDIT: OMF EVERYONE HAS TO SEE ( THIS )

She said it, bye.

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PROMISESSSSSSS SHATTERED PEEEEICES. [22 Jun 2003|01:44am]

[ mood | energetic ]

[ music | your promise - mest ]

Hi kiddies. :[ Sorry for dying off. NO REALLY, I am. And I most likely won't do it again as long as someone gives me something worth to stick around for. I felt weird being around everyone when .. people were fighting and I didn't really know why they were. :D

Um. Europe. Enough said.

Har har I watched that Sugar Train skit today and fucking pissed my pants like 7 times.

New layout and new icons, by the way. :-* I almost put Mest lyrics on the layout but I felt like that'd be taking my obsession a little too far so I just put them in the title. :-x

Peace.

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[20 Jun 2003|04:12pm]

[ mood | curious ]

[ music | JAAAAAAAAADED. stupid. AND WRECKLESS! =-O ]

WTF HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTHONY LOVATO. >:O >:O

I am so dead, why have I not been on AIM for the past year? I suck. At life. No seriously I'll try and get on. SDKFHSDKH SRY. I REALLY AM.

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[18 Jun 2003|05:14pm]

[ mood | eheheh ]

[ music | punk'd ]

.. So I sort of broke my "update everyday" thing didn't I. AH WELL, I knew it wasn't gonna happen. :D

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IIIIII COMMITED MURDER AND NOBODY KNOOOOOOWS. [14 Jun 2003|10:26pm]

[ mood | relaxed ]

[ music | 25 TA' LYF. ]

Um. First off, you know what's really sad? I haven't updated in two days, yet I'm still on the friends page. WHAT'S WITH THAT. Fuck. Update more. .. I know I'm a hypocrite but I'm gonna start updating everyday, you watch. [[ Yes I will considering I'm pretty much done with school minus 2 finals. ;[ ]]

Anyway. So I see lots of shit going down, but will I say anything about it? No. Do I ever? No. Nothing new, moving on.

Mmm, Waldorf. Wtf, it owns. It feels so good to back home with Mom, Sarah and Josh. It's been the first time we've been back home for a long period of time, sort of. My mom invited a bunch of our family over and we had a big dinner and everything. Ehehehe Kelly met them all. Dun h8. :-*

So tommorow is Fathers day / Billy's birthday. 'Sup Billy. Yeah. Wtf. This year, fathers day will nawt be depressing because I said so. We're taking our mom out for dinner and we're just gonna chill. Then, Monday, Kel, Benj and I are going to kidnap Anne 'cause she's done with school. 'SUP ANNE BABY. And yeah, that's pretty much our schedule. o_0 Me and Benji's, that is. Unless he plans on doing other shit.

Um so. Mad props to Mest, your cd fucking owns. Lovatos win, this once. BUT WTF. BENJI'S THING ON THE HIDDEN TRACK FUCKING KILLS ME. What the fuck Benji, crack is bad baby. <3 :D

Ew, this sucks. I think Kelly has to leave for tour, .. soon. ::shrugs:: I won't think about it though.

Um. Does anyone know when we go back on tour, 'cause I'm hoping I can go catch some Warped dates before we go. :\ I really wish we were on it.

I'm out.

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